by Tina K Kailea
There was a time when I was completely detached from any spiritual mindset. I was lost in the hustle, trying to prove myself in a world where success was defined by how fast you could climb and how well you could compete. I was stuck in the cycle of chasing the next big thing, and busyness felt like a badge of honor. Hustling became my default — I wore it like armor to protect myself from the insecurities and self-doubt bubbling beneath the surface.
For me, a career meant sacrifice, long hours, and relentless hard work. That was the model I grew up with in my parents' business, and while it brought financial stability, it came at a cost — time. Quality moments took a back seat to financial security, and as I matured, I internalized this as the norm. Even as I advanced in my career, landing roles like General Manager at an international media company, something inside felt hollow — the inner voice of doubt never quieted. My life looked perfect on paper, yet I felt unworthy of the success I had achieved, disconnected from myself, and entirely out of alignment with joy or purpose.
As I reflect on that old version of myself, I see a woman trapped in an executive hamster wheel of her own making. I didn’t understand then that I was living out old, deeply rooted stories of “not-good-enough.” I believed I had to constantly prove myself to deserve the success and respect I had earned. But the truth was, I had lost myself — wholly.
The once wild little girl who spent her days outdoors, dreaming big, collecting crystals, and feeling the magic of nature had been buried under societal expectations. Like many women, I began to dim my light to avoid judgment, fitting myself into molds that weren’t mine.
I see now that my drive to perform and overachieve was a result of this conditioning. I hustled and pushed myself into burnout because I believed I had to prove my worth through external success and achievement. I had no boundaries, no voice, and certainly no sense of balance. The only thing that kept me going was the fear of losing everything if I stopped.
But here’s the truth: it’s in the breakdown that the breakthrough occurs. It wasn’t until I hit my lowest point that I finally realized something had to change. I had been navigating the suppressed grief of losing five pregnancies, feeling like a failure. I was angry, ashamed, and disconnected from the world. I could no longer ‘perform’ and sacrifice myself for a version of success that left me depleted. It was time to rediscover and reclaim my feminine energy and let my wild child rise once again.
The path to becoming an unapologetic wild woman wasn’t linear. I had to unlearn the toxic narratives that told me I wasn’t good enough. I had to reconnect with my body, my intuition, and embrace my spirit. I learned to create boundaries, say no, and redefine success on my terms — I embraced the truth that I was worthy of everything I desired.
Now, I am unapologetically myself. I lead from a place of alignment and purpose. My feminine power and professional ambition are no longer at odds; they coexist harmoniously. If you feel trapped, lost, or disconnected from your true essence, know this: your wild feminine is still there, waiting to be reclaimed.
If this resonates with you, reach out and let’s begin the journey together. It’s time for you to transform and create a life where you show up fully, unapologetically, and in complete alignment with who you truly are.
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